Super Selfish

I know blog slacker yet again. Anyway I have been having a selfish day today and it started last night. Jesse and I were doing our usually TV flipping and channel surfing and we came across a show that was about teen mothers and giving up their babies for adoption and believe me I am an advocate for adoption. It broke my heart to have to think about giving my baby away, I mean I do not have my own but I could not even think of handing my child to someone else and saying goodbye. These thoughts lead me to think about Johanna.

As I have said before her story is Nikki's to tell but I have times that I have deep sadness over her not being with us. I know she is with my Lord and she is forever perfect and healthy and will never suffer. But on days like today I am selfish and I want to hold her and buy her Christmas and buy dresses and spoil her with the love of an Uncle and Aunt that are crazy about her. Walking through the stores and seeing the sweet dresses and baby toys I think about her, when I see babies, or hear them cry I think about her, she is forever with me. I do not say much or show much but she touched my heart in away that I could never really explain, and I will never forget her perfect little face until I see her again in Eternity.

Grand Weekend!

After the rocky start of Friday with the crazy patient the rest of my weekend went smashing! I got to sleep late on Saturday, then I hung out with my hubby for a little bit, and then I got to go shop for sweet baby Johanna. Jesse and I then went to dinner and to the movies which we love. The movie was awesome.

On Sunday we had a great day at Church, the message was wonderful of course and made me think about my prayer life and how much it is lacking. Then the church had a Pastor appreciation dinner for Jesse and we had a great time. I would just like to take the time to say that I appreciate my Pastor, I know everyone thinks that it is cheating because he is my husband, but it is not because the time that he stands in the Pulpit challenges my heart just like anyone else and I take him seriously when he stands and preaches. He is always my husband and I always love as such but during those times he is my Pastor and I appreciate that. (I love you Preacher Jesse.)

After church it was down for a nap because that is just what I do, then we went to Calvary and shared Pastor appreciation with the rest of the family. It is always fun to get to go back to Calvary and visit with those special people. Now as the week begins I start to anxiously await the arrival of baby Johanna. I am so excited I cannot wait to kiss those sweet chubby cheeks and see if God has seen fit to give her red hair like Clayton. I am also anxious to see what God has planned for her little life and to enjoy the sweet precious moments we are given with her.

Rant!

Ok so this is a short, sweet, and to the point post. All my peeps that work in the doctors office will understand though. So why does it seem to anyone a good idea to come into a doctors office and demand the records from a test that you had 10 years ago, when you were not under this doctors care. I mean really can I just produce them. Well, me being me and not very assertive I tried. I called medical records, the department that the test were done in, the supervisor of said department, I called the doctors office that he was with at the time, and then I called medical records again because he was still not happy. Well come to find out he has tried this before and to no avail because not everyone is a sucker like me. It makes me kinda angry that I bent over backward to make this super awesome patient happy and he still left angry. Of course he said not with me just the situation, and then he proceeded to complain about driving all the way from Charlotte up here and that he guessed he would just go on to Boone to stay in his mountain home. (Note to complaining patients do not complain about how far you have to drive, one if you do not need to work because you are independently wealthy for some reason, two if you have two homes to go sulk in. Think of the peeps who cannot afford to come to the doctor at all.) Thank you so much for listening.

Being Aunt Amy

I was just thinking today, one that I need to do better about blogging and two that it is awesome being Aunt Amy. I can think of a million reason why it is great being Aunt Amy but I thought that might take a while so I would shorten the list to about 10 or 15.

1. It is awesome being Aunt Amy because of whose Aunt that I am. I mean really how amazing are these kids (in birth order of course not to show favies) Alana, Wesley, Krista, Lindsey, Clayton, Natalie, Baby Jo and Baby Lacombe (aka Sparkles).

2. The Blessing that these children are to me is so hard to describe. I get so excited when I know that I am going to get to see any of them.

3. They think that I am cool, even though I may not be cool all the time. Even Alana and she is 13 so I must be doing something right.

4. They say the best things. Like Duck, duck, doose. Super long Bible Verses. New cool kid words that I do not know what they mean (Alana), and the best one is I love you and missed you.

5. They give awesome hugs and love.

6. They are so funny! Clayton loves to clap and shout to bluegrass and Lindsey and Natalie play fight, Krista has an attitude, and Wesley picks on her about it. Alana is sarcastic if no one noticed.

7. They learn something new all the time and it amazes me at how smart they are.

8. I love getting to be on their level.

9. I love to see how happy they make Jesse and to see him play with them.

10. Getting to send them home when they are no longer happy being with me. (hahaha that was a joke you know I love them even when they are not happy.)

11. Getting to hold them and kiss ouchies.

12. Hearing all the dramatic details of all they have done since the last time I saw them and talking about nothing.

13. Getting to play make believe.

14. Never knowing what they will come up with next.

15. This one is bitter sweet but amazing, being a part of a special journey of a little girl who has changed my life forever, and has helped me to see just how important each life is no matter whether you know the person yet or not. I do not talk about Jo much just because it is so hard and because I feel like it is not my story to tell, and I will never know an ounce of what Nikki is feeling but I know that I have grown from Jo's life, no matter how long I know her here she has made a lasting impression on me. God has worked in me through her in an amazing way. I know that her time may be short here but I will see her again in Heaven and I will always be her Aunt Amy.

The list could go on for days and I could list a million wonderful things about each one of these special children. Why should I if you know them yourself you already know how awesome they are!

Award for me!

So Nikki bestowed upon this awesome award and so therefore I will complete it, and because I love the question answer thing too. (Oh and the computer at work is stinky so therefore I could not copy the picture.)


This award does come with a few rules;

1. Answer the survey below...you can only use one word answers!

2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers!

3. Alert them that you have given them this award!

4. Have Fun!OK now Let the FUN begin

1. Where is your cell phone? Desk
2. Your hair? in place today
3. Your mother? Valdese
4. Your father? Valdese
5. Your favorite food? Pumpkin
6. Your dream last night? Dunno
7. Your favorite drink? Coke from a can
8. Your dream/goal? Trauma Nurse
9. What room are you in? Office
10. Your hobby? Reading
11. Your Fear? anything creepy crawly
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? In God's Will
13. Where were you last night? Mom and Daddy's
14. Something that you aren’t? Loud
15. Muffins? Blueberry
16. Wish list item? A new Coach
17. Where did you grow up? North Carolina
18. Last thing you did? Checked in patient
19. What are you wearing? Black skirt and sweater
20. Your TV? Uh, just a TV
21. Your pets? Fudge and Harper
22. Friends? Wonderful in everyway
23. Your life? Busy but fun
24. Your mood? Anxious
25. Missing someone? Always
26. Vehicle? Mazda 3
27. Something you’re not wearing? Socks
28. Your favorite store? at the moment I am loving Old Navy
29. Your favorite color? Green
30. When was the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Today
32. Your best friend? Jesus
33. One place that I go to over and over? Restroom
34. One person who emails me regularly? Joan
35. Favorite place to eat? Olive Garden (for the moment)

Thank you Nikki for the chance to do this test.

He Knows My Name

I am sorry that I am so slack on the blogging, no excuse just happens. Anyway life has been crazy, fun but crazy here of late. We went on our Mission trip which was super fun but it made us super tired, I got a new job which is great, and further more life is good. I am however still a worrier as always and there have been things on my mind.

There are some things going on in my life that have me concerned and would ask that you help me pray for these special things (I shall not go into detail until I have more details to give). We had a wonderful day in God's House today and there was a family that our church supports there. The daughter of the evangelist sang several songs, she has a beautiful voice. She sang the song "He Knows My Name" (one of my favorites) and it really touched me during a time that I have concern and worry. The God of the universe who created everything and controls everything knows my name. I am unworthy of the Love of God but he loves me and knows my name, He knew me before the foundation of the world. He knows my every care and even what problems seems big to me are nothing to my God, He shoulders my burden and I try to remind myself of that. God reminded me in a big way today.

Thank God that He knows my name and thank God I know the name of Jesus.

3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ: 4 According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love:5 Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will, 6 To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved. 7 In whom we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace;

Ephesians 1: 3-7

BIG NEWS!

I am so excited I am having a hard time containing myself! Not only was yesterday my wonderful hubby's birthday but I also got the news that I got a new job! Woot! That means a set schedule, thank you very much, hopefully a much improved work atmosphere, and a little raise. God answers prayers in His own time and it was such a blessing to get the news when I was already having such a great day with Jesse.

Jesse and I spent all day together and it was great, we ate lunch for his birthday and then we went to the movies. Public Enemies was awesome and I would suggest it. Romance with gunfights and bank robberies. Then we shopped a little and Jesse bought large amounts of racket ball equipment. Then it was off to play tennis with the gang, I am learning but I think I am more cut out for the swings with the girls, and then we had pizza and watched Barbie at the Lacombe's. It was a great day and I thank God for allowing us to spend special time together. We need it to recharge sometimes. I am also excited because the new job will allow more time for date days!

My Hubby!

So tomorrow is my babe's birthday and he already has a full day planned for us so I thought that I would take the time today to do a special tribute to him! Thought I would make a list of just of few of the things that make him special not just to me but the WHOLE WORLD!

1. I am completely and totally in love with him head over hills, crazy, silly, goofy, falling down love!

2. He is hilariously funny. I mean really have you been around him for like two seconds?

3. He is fun to be with and around.

4. He is negative in a positive way.

5. He is cute first thing in the morning. I mean he is cute all the time but like little boy sweet cute.

6. He hates to shop, which drives me crazy, but that is what makes him him.

7. He loves his family and my family.

8. He loves kids and he is good with them, especially Clay bob, Prista, Wesley, Alana, Lindsey, and Nat.

9. He whines about the shows that I watch, why does he think that I watch them.

10. He likes cartoons too.

11. He is the smartest person I know. (He lets me be right sometimes, thank you there is only three layers of skin not seven sir.)

12. He loves the cats at our house and talks to them all the time.

13. He is obsessed with something all the time and I love it.

14. He is super dedicated to what ever he puts his mind too.

15. He is devoted to me and I never ever doubt that devotion and I never ever second guess him.

16. He is my rock.

17. He is a good friend.

18. He loves his mom and his sister.

19. He respects his father and mine.

20. The list could go on for days but the most important is He is a Man of God and stands on the Word and I thank God for him everyday whether he knows that or not.

I love you Jesse with every bit of me Happy Birthday sweet heart!

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (King James Version)

4Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,
5Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;
6Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;
7Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

I am a Blog Slacker!

Ok, so no one wants to hear my excuses but I shall give them anyway. First there were ten weeks of CNA which consisted of class from 8-12 four days a week and then 1 to 2 hours of homework and then to work from 3-11:30, sometimes there was a nap in the middle of that if time allowed. Then I tried really hard to make Bible School special so there was alot shopping and decorating. Ok but I am done and no more excuses.

Now maybe life can calm down a little. I have completed CNA and all I have to do is take the test which I am praying to pass and then I have three more classes and hopeful getting into the 2010 nursing class. Anywho I loved CNA it was hard back breaking work but the chance to help people and work with those special people was a blessing to me.

Bible School happened this weekend, it was one day, and it was smashing! I think the children loved it and the Lord was glorified in what we did. I want to thank the people who worked so hard and took such good care of those special little people that came to take part. We also had a good day in God's House on Sunday. Jesse preached a wonderful message which I enjoyed (does that mean I am a Calvinist?) God touched me in a special way. He reminded me of everything that I have been blessed with and if were not by His Saving Grace it is hard telling where I would be in life right now. I have also been shown what Faith in Christ can do for a Saved person it has been such a blessing to me to see God work in so many people around me as well as my life.

I would also like to thank God for sending me special friends that I can confide in and who love me for me! I love you guys!

What a Blessing!

Hi all, just have a few to talk but just wanted to ask that you pray for my daddy he is facing some health problems and there are spiritual needs there as well. I am not sure where he stands with the Lord. Please help me to pray about this I would appreciate it. I had my daddy on my heart and the thought of something happening to him is such a weight on my heart. It would break my heart.

I have grown weary and tired with the stress of my sisters ordeal and sometimes I just want to cry. Jesse has started something new on Wednesday night instead of asking for physical needs during pray time he is asking us to pray for spiritual needs (great idea dear). I always ask for my sister and my other family but last night when I prayed I feel like my burden for the lost has become stronger than it has been in a while and I wept for my father and my sister because not knowing where they are with the Lord hurts my heart so bad.

Anywho, the Lord helped my heart once again! Jesse was preaching a powerful message about laws and Pharisees and as he was closing the message I started to close my Bible and the pages turned and landed on this passage:

Isaiah 40:28-31 (King James Version)
28Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding.
29He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
30Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall:
31But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.


Oh it was such a blessing to me (the Lord has never revealed Himself to me in this way before) and I have been thinking of it all day it has helped me to live in that sunshine again. THANK YOU LORD!

My Birthday!

So it was my birthday yesterday and I promise this is not an all about me post. I just wanted to say thank you to all of my wonderful friends and family for all of the love and gifts. I told Jesse last night that I am really blessed to have such special people in my life. I love birthday phone calls and text messages they make me soooo happy. I may be a big dork but I think birthdays are really special and important, maybe it is because my momma and daddy were always so good about making them special (they still do). I am also blessed with Jesse's family, who also makes birthdays special. My little grandmother still calls me every year to tell me happy birthday and Lindsey called me from the potty to sing to me (i loved it). Mallory and Makenna also sang to me (loved it). Then there were the cupcakes that the sweet girl in class made me from scratch how awesome is that. Then my sweet Maddie made me cupcakes for work tonight! I love cupcakes.

I got to spend all day with the love of my life and we had sooooo much fun! We ate PF Changs and then we shopped (bought one thing how sad is that). We watched a movie last night and then I slept late. I awoke to a wonderful breakfast in bed. My hubby is the best! Thank you all for making me feel special!

Revive Me Again Oh Lord!

First of all sorry the zoo pictures are still in the works. They will be on here one of these years I promise. Anywho, revival is awesome this week Brother Rick is doing an amazing job and I feel like the Lord is working in our little church. I know that He is working in my heart, on Tuesday night he preached about how to be a help to the church and supporting the church and loving the church and tonight he preached on getting out of traditions and going with God no matter what it takes you out of. He also touched on the subject of having a burden for the lost souls around us. It breaks my heart to think that I do not weep for lost souls like I have in the past. Members of my family are lost and I cannot find the time to get on my face and plead on their behalf. I needed the message tonight if no one else did. It worked on my heart and made me realize that the things that he talked about were about me. I am the one who does not take the time to share God's Word like I should. I am ashamed of myself and it breaks my heart to think that I would be so hard. I have no excuse I am blood bought and would never deny my Lord but I get discouraged when I feel like we pray and pray for the salvation of some people and their life's still spiral out of control in front of us. I have been living in this discouraged state for a while and the message tonight encouraged me to get out of that rut and pray and weep and call on God again for those that I love and are lost. Please help me pray!
Also as all, or most, of you know I am a worrier. My knew motto is, wait for it, wait for it, to live in the sunshine everyday! I pray this everyday and ask that you help me pray about this too. I think that it is working, I have been striving to live in the moment and not worry about what God has already taken care of, which is everything, why should I try to help.
I am so excited about tomorrow night and the meeting. I am really looking forward to the message and hearing the youth choir from Calvary come and sing. Please pray for us and our Church.

PS Mallory and Kenna you guys did an awesome job tonight!

15 Things I am Loving Right Now!

I was thinking about a few things that I love right now and thought that I would share. You may want to try a few of them.

1. Babybel Light Snaking Cheese. This stuff is awesome and it only has 50 calories and has its on little waxy, red, protective, fun layer. I love it, thanks to the sweet girl named Heather in my CNA class who brought me one to try! Check out the nutrition facts and see for yourself. http://www.dietfacts.com/html/nutrition-facts/the-laughing-cow-mini-babybel-light-cheese-original-100percent-all-natural-light-snacking-che44316.htm

2. My flower beds. They are so pretty and so much fun to take care of! Thank you Jesse, Daddy, and Chad.

3. Fresh Pineapple scented Wallflowers from Bath and Body Works. It makes our house smell tropical. Mmmmmmmmmm tropical!

4. Sugarland's new CD makes me pretty happy.

5. Happy Hour at Sonic 2-4 pm everyday half price drinks. One large sweet tea $.91. Happy day!

6. WARM WEATHER! Happy flip-flop time!

7. Planning for Bible School with my hubby, it is gonna be fun fun fun!

8. Izzy Scrubs by Peaches. They are so comfy and fit so well.
http://www.uniformsandscrubspeaches.com/?gclid=CJrImJv9lJoCFQghnAod0wKgNA

9. Steak Biscuits from Hardee's as a treat for breakfast on Saturday mornings. Yummo!

10. Working second shift, kinda loving this, not the hours, new people, less supervisor, less stress I think.

11. Ms. Hartley, my CNA teacher, she is so funny, tough but a good teacher. (This is subject to change if the homework is to much.) Hahahaha

12. Barnyard the cartoon on Nickelodeon. It makes me laugh. This is the new Sunday morning cartoon.

13. Getting to sleep an extra hour in the morning, even if I do go to bed later because of second shift.

14. Going to school again. I love learning new things, especially things that interest me like this does.

15. My new old American Eagle pants that I found in the closet. I forgot about them, it is so exciting it is like new clothes that I can actually wear!

I thought it would be fun to share some things I am loving right now the list could go on of course. See what you can come up with.

In Christ Service

Amy

Wonderful Weekend

Hi all, hope all is well. I had a minute so I thought I would stop by. We had a wonderful weekend in God's house. Jesse preached at the youth meeting at Calvary and it was wonderful, he preached in power and the singing was a blessing. Stay at home mommy did a wonderful job on the food. The whole meeting on Saturday was a blessing to my heart, even the singing in the choir. It is always good to get a chance to fellowship with the special people at Calvary. I love all the hugs and words of encouragement. Sunday was a wonderful day at our home church as well. Jesse preached another message in the Series Saving Jesus, it was actually the final one, I have really enjoyed and grown in the Lord while listening and learning from these messages. I just thank God for my husband and his desire to serve the Lord and serve me as my husband. Even though times are not always easy at our house I know that he will always be there and never leave me. I love you Jesse!

We also got a chance to fellowship with some of the folks at Bethlehem on Sunday after church. We had alot of fun and enjoyed the good time of fellowship. Sunday night I got to spend time with my bestest, Stay at Home Mommy, and her lovely family. Jesse and I got to play with Clayton and the girls, Lindsey and Natalie. It was so much fun! It is always great to see the world through the eyes of a three year old. Lindsey decided to be like her mommy and underline words in her Bible and then she wanted to take notes like Jesse and then she helped me come up with stuff for our Bible School. Natalie has also become an astounding climber since I last saw her, we are talking tall mountainous chairs and tables. Clayton is just awesome as always. Well I think that is enough from me for now! I love you all and please continue to pray for the Carswells and the Avery bunch and me and CNA.

CNA is kinda HARD

Hi all, sorry once again for the delay in blogging. It happens sometimes. First I would like to say thank you too all of you who have been praying for my sister and her children, please do not stop. Her case was heard today and she will not have to be away from her children, God is good. Her spiritual needs are still at the top of the list and ask that you do not stop praying. Jesse preached a powerful message on Wednesday about letting God take control and not trying to fix things yourself, it really hit home for me. Also, as you all know the Carswell's have gotten some difficult news about baby Plum formerly know as Bean and this has been on my heart all week. (I am a worrier for anyone who did not know.) Please continue to pray.

Now to the super exciting and not stressful news. I started CNA on Monday and it is alot more book work and home work than first anticipated. I thought it would be all about the clinical but apparently my teachers plan is to weed out everyone who thinks this is an easy job. I have already had to write two papers and had tons of homework to fit into the schedule. But all that aside I LOVE IT! I think I finally did it, decided what I want to be when I grow up. A NURSE! Everything about the job interest me, yes even the icky, sad, and gross parts. I know that Jesse is thanking God that this one has apparently stuck! Sorry that I have not been a good friend, this week life just got so busy all of a sudden some how. I LOVE YOU ALL!

Ephesians 4
1I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called,
2With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love;
3Endeavouring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.
4There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling;
5One Lord, one faith, one baptism,
6One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.
7But unto every one of us is given grace according to the measure of the gift of Christ

My Hubby is Home and life Is Good!

So the title of my blog, What a Crazy Blessed Life, took on new meaning last night at around 8:30 pm. If you have ventured over to Nikki's blog you know all about how she saved the day. It also made us all realize one more time how our steps are ordered by the Lord and that it was by His Will that we were there and Nikki was able to save a life. I think that it showed how humble and filled with the Spirit that Nikki is when all of those people were coming up and telling her how great she did and she gave all the credit and glory to the Lord I think that is a true testimony. Thank you Nik for living God all the time it helps me to try harder to be Christ like.

Also, last night and oh so exciting the beautiful and fun Jamie Lynn got the most beautiful prom dress which would be nothing without her beautiful self to go in it. I had so much fun getting to go shopping with the girls to pick out something so special for Jamie, I am glad that you decided to go to prom you will not regret it. Oh, do not forget keep the properties covered and your head up, shoulders back, and the party does not start until you arrive. (PICTURES AS SOON AS PROM IS OVER AND YOU ARE HOME!)

Jesse is home, yippie! The house has been so quite and clean, mostly quite. It has been a good busy week but I missed my hubby. The cats have been going insane, louder than normal, messing in stuff, and sleeping in the bed with me. I think that it flips them out because Jesse has been gone and they feel the need to love me and sleep with me. It was nice but nothing like my Jesse. I also enjoyed staying with my mom and daddy and spending time with them.

From what I hear they had a good meeting and Jesse was happy to be home. All the good folks at Bethlehem missed Jesse and are ready to have their Pastor back. Thank you to everyone who took time out of their week to entertain me so I would not get to lonely with out my other half. I love you guys and it is such a blessing to have special friends and family in my life.

It is a Good day, It is a Good day!

So the blog by Simply Donna motivated me to vent a little today. I also work in the medical field and I will do you one better I work in the ER of a county hospital. Is it ok if I vent for a second?
1. People call in all the time just cause they think they need too. So that means that I have to register 80% of all the outpatient charts at CMH today.
2. The people that I work around and with are kinda flighty, I mean I know that I can be too, but must we freak out all the time.
3. I am amazed at the fact that patients come in and have no clue what they are here for, what their doctors name is, what is hurting or giving them problems, or if they have insurance. ( No these are not old senile patients, these are people my age some of which I know.)
4. "I need your insurance card and photo id every time that you come in." "Why?" "Just to torture you!" I do not want to see your insurance card just for fun I get no reward for copying it and I do not care if you drivers licences picture looks bad. Just hand it over peaceably.
5. When I ask for your current mailing address, that means the place that you get your mail now, not what it use to be 15 years ago.
6. Please do not have a cow when I ask you for money, it is not my fault and I try to do it as nicely as I can, all you have to say is I do not have it.
7. If I do not have an order or a proper order it is not my fault do not yell at me yell at your wonderful MD or his staff that cannot properly fill out the form that is self explanatory. They can even do it on the computer in most cases and it tells you what boxes to fill out.
8. No my desk is not a trash can and no I do not want to throw away your tissue or your puke bag or the gauze that you had on your bloody finger. I actually had a woman eat an ice cream cone right in front of me one day tryng to get registered for an xray. On the same day I had a man eat a big mac while registering his son for surgery, and then ask me to throw his trash away. (Is this the hospital or the park really people?!?) There is a trash can right beside of you.

I digress, I am thankful that I have a job to complain about and I also really like my job, the environment is just kinda stressful sometimes. Thank you for letting me vent.

A Brand New Day

Hi all! Sorry that once again the blog has suffered. I love you all very much and thank you for all the prayers that have been said for Jesse and I and our special object. Please continue to pray the saga continues. I have been kinda sad and down these past few days. I think that the impact of everything that has been going on has finally hit me. I think that life for Jesse has been very lets say interesting with me these past few days.
Anyway, on my way to work this morning I started thinking about things and the rain made me think about a new beginning. Like how God uses the rain to make everything new and green again in the spring time. Maybe this whole experience is a way to give my sister a new beginning in a way. I pray that God will use this as a way to make her realize what is important in her life and save her. My heart breaks everyday for her and the children, I try to tell myself that she brought it on herself and that I should only feel bad for the children, but God will not let me do that.
As it rains today, even though it is gloomy and dreary I will be thinking about the grand new beginnings that will come with the rain, the new flowers, new baby animals, and a time to celebrate a Risen Saviour. I pray that I will a have brighter and more upbeat attitude today and try harder not to stress and worry. As you watch the rain today try to think of all the blessings that God has given you in unexpected ways and the new beginnings that He has given you starting with your Salvation.

"ARISE"
DOWN THE STREETS OF JERUSALEM, CAME A FUNERAL PROCESSION DOWN THE SAME LONELY STREET, CAME THE RESURRECTION THEY MOURNED THE LOSS OF A LOVED ONE, BUT WHEN JESUS SAW THEIR GRIEF, HE LAID HIS HAND UPON HIM AND DEATH HAD TO FLEE
CHORUS: ARISE, ARISE, MY LITTLE ONE ARISE ARISE, ARISE, WIPE THE SLEEP FROM YOUR EYES, I AM THE RESURRECTION AND I GIVE UNTO YOU LIFE ARISE, ARISE, MY LITTLE ONE ARISE
BREAK: DOWN THE STREETS OF GLORY, SOME DAY I'M GONNA STROLL IN THE LAND OF MILK AND HONEY, WHERE THE SAINTS WILL NEVER GROW OLD, WHEN JESUS COMES BACK FOR US, ON THAT RESURRECTION DAY, IN MY HEART I'M SO EXCITED, I CAN ALMOST HEAR HIM SAY.
REPEAT CHORUS: TAG: I AM THE RESURRECTION, AND I GIVE UNTO YOU LIFE ARISE, ARISE, MY LITTLE ONE ARISE

I love this song and I thought about it today and how all life comes from Him.

Life is full of unexpected Blessings!

Hi all! Sorry I have been slack in the blogging department, I have no excuse just lazy I guess. I have had alot on my mind this past few days, things that I have shared only with the Lord. I have this point of view that I should not burden others with my burden even if it is my husband or the ones that love me the most in this world. I have a heavy heart for my sister and her children, it hurts me to see them go through this time. No child should face the things that Wesley, Krista and Alana may be getting ready to face. Even though I try to tell myself that my sister has brought all this on herself it still hurts my heart to think that she may spend time away from her children in such an awful place. It is such a confusing time.
I just pray that if it is God's Will for the kids to come and stay with Jesse and I for a time that he would use this as a positive experince for all that are involved. Please pray for us that Jesse and I will be strong Christian influences in these little lives. Oh how much it scares me to think that I will have such an influence on another person. It Blesses my heart to think that I would be trusted to care for such important little people. Just pray that God's Will be done in this situation. If it were up to me, my sister would first get Saved, second fly right, and put God first and then her children ( and spend no time away). But as we all know it is not my will it is His. I would also like to take time to thank God for a loving husband who is not negative or resentful about the situation, instead ready to face it head on. Thank you God for the sin that You have Saved me from. Wesley and Krista are such a blessing to my heart and I thank God for them. Please just pray for our special object. We need God's touch.

True Biblical Love for my Husband

God has been leading me for a while to read the Book of Song of Solomon. So my Bible study this week has been from this Book. I have read it before but I do not think that I truly understood it until this time when I read it. I think that it is because I have a true love, a husband, God's man for me. I can now understand why this Book was so controversial there are parts when you truly understand them that are so private and personal about a husband and a wife. My favorite verses in the book were from Chapter 8:

6: Set me as a seal upon thine heart, as a seal upon thine arm: for love is strong as death; jealousy is cruel as the grave: the coals thereof are coals of fire, which hath a most vehement flame. 7: Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.

These verses show what true Biblical love and passion for your spouse should be. It touches my heart and makes me want to be a more loving and compassionate wife to my husband. He is the man that completes me, makes me happy, loves me without end, and most importantly leads me in the ways of God. I want to strive to be a Godly wife and a more Christ like woman everyday. I love you Jesse and I never thought that I could love you more than I did on our wedding day, but I love you more and more each day. I love each day with you and growing in Christ with you.

Jesus is my only Glory!

When I Survey the Wondrous Cross

When I survey the wondrous cross
On which the Prince of glory died,My richest gain I count but loss,And pour contempt on all my pride.
Forbid it, Lord, that I should boast,Save in the death of Christ my God!
All the vain things that charm me most,I sacrifice them to His blood.
See from His head, His hands, His feet,Sorrow and love flow mingled down!
Did e’er such love and sorrow meet,Or thorns compose so rich a crown?
His dying crimson, like a robe,Spreads o’er His body on the tree;Then I am dead to all the globe,And all the globe is dead to me.
Were the whole realm of nature mine,That were a present far too small;Love so amazing, so divine,Demands my soul, my life, my all.
[Added by the compilers of Hymns An­cient and Mo­dern]
To Christ, who won for sinners grace By bitter grief and anguish sore,Be praise from all the ransomed race Forever and forevermore.

Galatians 6:14 (King James Version)
14But God forbid that I should glory, save in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, by whom the world is crucified unto me, and I unto the world.

I read this verse this morning and it made me think of this song. This verse makes me think of all the pride that I have and how I try to take credit for things in my life, when I know that it has nothing to do with me but it is all God. I have been thinking alot about how I complain about the most trivial things but God did not complain when he sent Jesus to die on the Cross for my sins. Please pray that I will live Jesus in all that I do and that I will be dead to the things of the world. There are many times that I let the world in and it hinders my walk with Him. I love you all! Happy Birthday Ms. Joan, Ms. Natalie, and Ms. Crump!

How Simple

As I was praying this morning I was thinking about how simple a prayer is. To communicate with our Heavenly Father all we have to do is humbly speak to Him. I thought of the simple prayer that children pray before they eat,
God is good, God is great, let us thank Him for our food, by His hands we shall be fed, give us Lord our daily bread. Amen.
This thought spoke volumes to me after the message that we heard on Sunday night about worry. This prayer is so simple yet so profound. It states the truth about my God. He is Good all the time, He always makes Good on all His promises to the child of God. God is Great, He is the only all knowing, all encompassing, all powerful, supreme being. He is in control of everything nothing happens without his Will being fulfilled. Let us thank Him for our food, not just our food but everything that God has been so good to provide for us. By His hands we shall be fed, this line makes me think of the worry in my life and how all things come from the Father. If He provides for the fouls of the air and grass of the field then why would He let His child go without. By His hands all things are provide, not just worldly things. He gave His son a sacrifice for me, little unworthy me. I think of all the things that I do to fail Him everyday and He still provides for me. Give us Lord our daily bread, all things we need spiritually or physically all we need to do is humbly ask and God will provide for us the support and Love that we need and give us the Grace to make it through. All these truths hit me today, the words in a child's Prayer that is said day after day in homes, schools, and daycares everywhere, it touched my heart. It made me realize how humble I need to be when approaching my God. As Jesse says all the time it does not matter how eloquent the prayer, how long, or how many ways you try to Church it up, it all comes down to humble submission. Amen, it is true.

10 Things That You May Not Know About Me Oh Me

1. I am really shy, I know that is hard to believe. I have always been shy. The thought of speaking in front of people makes me feel sick. I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder at the age of 15. By God's Grace I have made it through and made leaps and bounds in being able to speak in large groups. Alot of my strength is drawn from Jesse's strength, he is my rock.

2. I love vanilla ice cream, boring I know, just vanilla or sweet cream.

3. I miss my sister. When she was not caught up in all the craziness in her life she was so much fun. I use to love to hang out with her and go places with her. God has sent us down two different paths and I pray that God save her before it is too late.

4. My favorite color is GREEN. All those years of people telling me that green looks good on red heads has forever warped me.

5. My favorite show on TV is John and Kate Plus Eight. My favorite cartoon is Jimmy Neutron. How could you not love John and Kate, those kids are so cute.

6. My dream vacation would be Paris. In the summer.

7. I am not a sweets kinda person, I would rather have salty things. Chips, pickles, olives (love olives), pretzels, popcorn, I love it all.

8. I love children, or is that an obvious one? Jesse and I are not ready for our own yet, but I love other people's children.

9. My favorite book of the Bible is either Romans or Ephesians. I also love Psalms and Song of Solomon. I love the whole Bible it is hard to pick. Before I got saved I never understood why people loved to read the Bible so much and now I understand.

10. I love working in the ER. I want to be an ER nurse soon, hopefully. Please pray that I will get into the 2010 class.

Ten facts to know and tell about me, how about you!

Silence!

Do you ever just want to have 10 seconds of silence? Today is one of those days, I am tired and pondering life. I have been pondering all those important things in life like I wonder what Jesse is doing, I wish it was three o'clock, what do I want to eat tonight at Texas Roadhouse, I wonder what Jesse got me for Valentine's Day, should I go ahead and eat lunch, and so many more life altering decisions. As you can tell life in the ER at CMH is not moving along to0 fast. Bless her heart, the girl that I work with could talk the bark off of a tree. She talks and talks and then she talks to herself if she thinks that you are not listening. I really do love her and love working with her but sometimes silence is GOLDEN. Now I know how my poor mom and dad felt when I was little.

Thank God for my Momma and Daddy!

Hi all! I just have a second to blog today but I wanted to stop by and say thank God for my momma and daddy. I do not stop and thank God enough for all my blessings but especially my mom and dad. I think that it is pretty easy to see if you are around me for long that I think the world of my mom and dad. Even though there were times in my teenage years that they probably did not see that, as I have gotten older and grown in the Lord I have realized how important that they are to me. They raised me to be a strong, compassionate, and loving individual. They provided for me and loved me unconditionally. I thank God for my parents. Just in the last two days my mom and daddy have blessed Jesse and I and saved the day.

Last night Ms. Joan texted and said that someone had paid money on mine a Jesse's trip to WY, guess who it was! My momma and daddy! Just cause they love us. Then last night in the pouring rain my windshield wiper decided to die, and I drove in the pouring rain with no windshield wipers to the auto parts store for them to fix it. They promptly told me there that yes they could put on new blades, but that the motor was bad and they could not fix that. So, I drove all the way back to Church in the pouring rain, well I should say God took me back safe, I could not see a thing and had to stop twice. When I got back Jesse looked at and a couple other people looked and said that they could not fix it. I said my daddy can fix it and I will call him. Jesse looked again when we got home and he found a lose bolt and tried to tighten it with his hand and could not get it very tight, so it did nothing. (He had the right idea.)

Today my daddy just came to see me, at the right time again. My daddy looked at it and sure enough the bolt that Jesse tried to tighten was the only thing wrong with it, he tightened it and saved us lots of money at the mechanic. So my husband had the right idea and my daddy was able to fix it up. My daddy can fix anything! Do not get me wrong I am not trying to belittle my husband cause he can fix anything too. Sometimes a girl just needs her daddy, I think Jesse understands that though.

Please pray for my daddy and my sister and where they stand with the Lord. Please pray that I will live for God in front of my whole family. Pray for the situation with my sister and her kids.

Don't forget the mother and father-in-law, I thank God for them and their love and acceptance into their family! Thank you for all that you do in my life! I love you guys!

Losing weight and gaining knowledge of our Lord

First of all lets start with something exciting but less important. I have lost two more pounds so that is a total of six since the beginning of the year. (So exciting) Jesse is such a good motivator and I feel so much better since I have started working out and making myself get up and do something.
Second Jesse and I attended the 20/20 Conference in Wake Forest this past weekend it was a wonderful experience. I was a little unsure of what to expect but it was wonderful. Jesse and I arrived on the beautiful campus of Southeastern Seminary and we were in such a hurry that we did not take the time to enjoy how beautiful it really is there, we took a little more time on Saturday to enjoy the warm weather and the beautiful area. The building that they call the Chapel, which I would think that it is a little more than a chapel, was so beautiful. We went mainly because Jesse wanted to hear Mark Driscoll. I had never really heard much of his preaching, all I knew is he wrote the books with the cool covers that Jesse reads all the time.
Mark Driscoll is the pastor of Mars Hill Church in Seattle Washington, http://www.marshillchurch.org/, he reaches out to the younger age group and has a gift for reaching out to those who are hurting and broken. He expounds on God's Word in a way that is easily understandable to those who are new in Christ and I think that has alot to do with his popularity. I was afraid to begin with that it was going to be extremely liberal and I was going to be turned off by the whole experience but that was not it at all, he stands on the Word, preaches the Blood, preaches sin is death and hell, and Christ is the only way to Salvation. If you have never heard of him I would suggest visiting his website and if you ever have the chance to hear him in person I would suggest that you go, you will not be disappointed. Thank you to my husband who took me to this event, it was a great help to me. It helped me to see how to live Christ a little more in everything that I do. We purchased several more of his books, so I am sure that this is not the last that you will hear about him. Have a blessed day!

PS Candice that I work with, her son Aiden had to be rushed to CMC last night for shortness of breath and possible RSV. There was a chance the he was going to have to be put on a respirator. Please pray for this little guy, he just turned nine months old, pray for his mom and dad as well. I am not sure where they stand with the Lord.

Being a Wife?!?

Hi all sorry that it has been a while since I last blogged. Anyway, I hope that you are all having a blessed day. I have been thinking about being a wife alot these past couple of days, thanks to my hubby who preached out of Ephesians 5 Sunday. He preached about having a Spirit filled relationship and being a Spirit filled couple. It really worked on my heart and I have realized in alot of ways I am a selfish wife, I think about my needs and what my husband can do for me and not what I can do for him, and what we can do for Him together. I know without a doubt that I love Jesse with all my heart and really do strive to do my best at being a wife, but that is where the problem comes in, I should not rely on what I can do but what Christ can do through me.

I just want Jesse to know that I love him more than anything and I do pray for him and us everyday. I love to see him stand in a pulpit and declare God's Word, I love to see him work, and believe me he does work, I love when he is a Pastor, but I love most of all the fact the he lives Christ everyday and he is my husband. When we laugh and are silly, when we talk and are serious, when we argue, when he plays with babies, when he picks on me, when I pick on him, I LOVE JESSE ALL THE TIME!

Please pray for me that I will be the wife that Christ would have me be.

I Am A Winner!

The rules of the award:

1) Choose a minimum of 7 blogs that you find brilliant in content or design.

2) Show the 7 winners names and links on your blog, and leave a comment informing them that they were prized with "Honest Scrap." Well, there's no prize, but they can keep the nifty icon.

3)List at least 10 honest things about yourself.

Thank you Mrs. Hinson for the lovely recognition.

I would like to give the honest scrap award to:

1. Joan @http://cablecarr.blogspot.com/

2. Nikki@http://chadandnikki.blogspot.com/

3. Heather@http://lilredmomma.blogspot.com/
4. Phil@http://philcrump.blogspot.com/2009/01/new-years-resolutions.html
5. Jaime@http://jamielynn-carswell.blogspot.com/
6. I love all the blogs that I follow.

Now the honest things about me:

1. I love cartoons. Only the good ones, like Spongebob and Jimmy Neutron.

2. My favorite sport is football and I love Brett Favre, Greenbay or the Jetts. I do own a Cheese head hat.

3. I worry alot, I even worry about worrying. I know that it is a sin, but I cannot help it. Pray for me.

4. I fear that I am a bad Pastor's wife.

5. I secretly want to be a police officer when I grow up.

6. I want to steal my niece and nephew and keep them for my own.

7. I love true crime shows. Dr. G is awesome. Snapped also makes me happy.

8. I am a major daddy's girl.

9. My cats are my kids. Strange I know.

10. I am having a really hard time with gaining weight and having an even harder time with losing the weight that I have put on. It makes me sad that I have put on weight!

Our New President

Ok, let me be honest with you. I have been all caught up in the inauguration this week. I watched what I could of the ceremony at work and then I watched the balls and celebrations when I got home. I know that may sound strange for someone who did not vote for him (no Mr. Carr I did not vote for him). I am caught up in the romance of the moment, the history of the ceremony, the thought that this is something that has gone on since the beginning of our country, the dresses and the elegance, and the fact that Obama is our first African American President. It is all something that is so important to our nation and the foundation for freedom. It excites me to see a man that seems so in love with his family. It is like a trip back to Camelot. I pray without the tragic end.
Though all these things are fun to the think about it is not the most important thing. Even though I do not agree with his stand on many things, at the top of my list is abortion and gay rights, it is still my job as a citizen to support him in the decisions that I can, and still honor God. People making ugly comments and racist jokes, in my opinion, it is just that person showing their intelligence. No matter what may come it is God's Perfect Will that Obama is our President, and it is our job as Christians to pray for him, his family and his Presidency. Most importantly of all I feel like if Christians would stop criticizing and running rabbits and spend that time in prayer about the salvation on our new President and his family then we may see a change in our country that we did not expect. There are definitely things that need to be said, we should speak out against things that defy God, such as the murder of babies and same sex marriage, but things such as race and certain things that will not matter in eternity let it go and go to Him in Prayer about it all.
It breaks my heart to think that we still live in a country where the color of a man's skin matters. I thank my mom and daddy for teaching me to love everyone. Thank God for compassion and love.

1 Thessalonians 5:17 (King James Version)
17Pray without ceasing.

Another Blessed Sunday

Hi all from beautiful CMH. I hope all is well where ever you are. Yesterday was a wonderful day in God's house. Jesse preached a powerful message about witnessing, God is working on me in this area of my life I must say. We had a good morning in Sunday school as well, we learned about God's House and why it is so special to us and how even Jesus went to God's House. Then out to eat with our wonderful friends, Billy, Heather, Mallory, and Makenna. Jesse ate pretty healthy and stayed true to the New Years Resolution, me not so much. I struggle so much with eating like I should, I LOVE FOOD! After dinner we went to a birthday party for my cousin and I got to see my Wesley and Krista. I love those kids so much. I pray everyday that God will use Jesse and I to be a light in their lives. I want them to have everything in life that they deserve and pray that God will Save them at a young age and keep them all the days of their life in a close relationship with Him.

After the birthday event of the day. It was off to Calvary. Service was such a blessing there as always. It still feels like going home for Jesse and I when we get the chance to fellowship with our friends there. They have all been such a blessing to us in so many ways. When we were starting our new lives together, when we got our house, and when Jesse got the church they have helped us, supported us, and love us. We can never thank them enough for their love.

Saturday was also a big day at the Carr house, Super Clayton made his very much anticipated arrival. He is so much fun and we love having him around all the time. We are blessed so much that Nikki and Chad give us the chance to spend time with him. He played and played and fought sleep. We ate at Pancho, which we all love. I got to spend time with Clayton and my momma and daddy, and my Jesse it was wonderful.

Heart Breaking Conversations

I had a conversation today with a friend and she told me of the hurts that she has in her heart. She lost a brother, whom she was very close too, last year and she is still suffering through the pain. She feels the pain daily and some how she blames herself for it. Maybe she should have done this or that or changed the way she did that, and if she did not go to work and stayed with him maybe he would still be here. She drags herself through the mud daily and it hurts my heart.

I have thought about that alot today and the things that I could have said and didn't, the comfort that I could have given and didn't. I told her that I loved her and would pray for her, but it seems like I failed her, and more importantly failed Him. I let a chance to tell someone about Jesus pass me by. I invite her to church and encourage her to come, but I had the chance to tell her about the wonderful Peace that only Jesus can give.

That sweet Peace that Jesus gave me on the day of her brother's funeral. We left the service and I was feeling so unsettled in my heart. The service was Catholic, the religion that they were raised, and it was different and sad. I talked to Jesse about her brothers Salvation and how I prayed that dead religion had not kept him from Heaven. I wept for a person who had a broken body in this life, and thought what if he was lost, he will never have a new body, he will never run and praise God, and fall at the feet of Jesus and worship Him.

I wept for a soul that I can no longer reach but I do not weep enough for the ones that I can witness too everyday. Please pray that I will be a light for Him in a lost and dying world, I want so badly to shine for Jesus, but fears and anxiety keep me from being the Christian I could be. Pray Pray Pray for me!



Be Thou my battle Shield, Sword for the fight;Be Thou my Dignity, Thou my Delight;Thou my soul’s Shelter, Thou my high Tower:Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

Do You Ever Wonder.......

As I was laying in bed last night listening to all the things in my house, Jesse sleeping next to me, the cats running a marathon, and cars going by, I started thinking. Am I the only one who ever wonders about things?
Like, how does my husband always know how to make me laugh?
How does my mom always know when I am sad, just by the sound of my voice?
How does my daddy always know when to show up at the right time, just when I need a smile?
How do children know the exact right time to sit on your lap or hold you hand?
How do your friends know that you need to talk without you saying a word?
How does my mother-in-law know when I need to be Amy instead of the Preacher's Wife?
How do Fudge and Pru always know where the food is?
How do people know that they are going to be sick like a week in advance, when they know they have to work?
How do those same people manage to make you feel very angry most of the time?
How do older people know when their time to make the crossing is near?
Why is it that all those that seem so smart, or think they are, have no wisdom?
Why do we lose child like faith? If we had it then why do we forget? Jesus is still the same.
Why do people make love a game where no one wins?
Why can those people not just trust the Lord to lead them to the one person that is right for them?
Why do people complain about having one child but then have another ten?
What happened to people to make them think that children are anything less than a gift from God?
Why am I still kinda scared of the dark?
Why does the cat drink form the bath tub?
The list could go on for days.................
Alas, the most important thing I ponder is why did God pick me, why did He Save me and not all the others that I know that are lost? I am a wretched sinner and He picked me! I am not sure why but, Praise God I am Saved, Saved, Saved!

Romans 8:28 (King James Version)
28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

My very first blog!

Hi all,

So here I am doing this blog thing, thank you Nikki, well trying to anyway. This is all kinda of new to me but I am going to go for it. To introduce myself, I am Amy, the Preachers wife, also known as Jesse's wife, Lee and Cheryl's daughter, Aunt Amy, Alan Carr's son's wife, and most importantly I am a Child of God. No matter what I am called I know one thing and that is the fact that I am blessed beyond measure. Romans 4:7

Our life gets out of control sometimes but one thing is for sure and that is the fact that it is always interesting. There is never a dull moment with Preacher Jesse in the house. Whether it is chasing the poor cats around, wearing pajamas and wing tips, being dramatic about everything, did I mention that there is a car door in his study right now, Preaching like a mad man, or just being my loving husband. I love him and I love our life.

Then there is my wonderful family, we are uncle and aunt to Alana, Wesley, Krista, Clayton, and adopted uncle and aunt to Lindsey and Natalie. We have wonderful parents who love us and still take care of us no matter how old we get. Then there is Nikki and Chad who we love to hang out with, I do not consider Nikki just to be a sister- in- law but one of my dearest friends. Though I do not get to see my sister very often I love her and pray for her everyday. We cannot forget all the G's we love you guys and are blessed to have you in our lives in such a big way.

I am so blessed to have all of these things and I promise my next post will not be this long!