Super Selfish

I know blog slacker yet again. Anyway I have been having a selfish day today and it started last night. Jesse and I were doing our usually TV flipping and channel surfing and we came across a show that was about teen mothers and giving up their babies for adoption and believe me I am an advocate for adoption. It broke my heart to have to think about giving my baby away, I mean I do not have my own but I could not even think of handing my child to someone else and saying goodbye. These thoughts lead me to think about Johanna.

As I have said before her story is Nikki's to tell but I have times that I have deep sadness over her not being with us. I know she is with my Lord and she is forever perfect and healthy and will never suffer. But on days like today I am selfish and I want to hold her and buy her Christmas and buy dresses and spoil her with the love of an Uncle and Aunt that are crazy about her. Walking through the stores and seeing the sweet dresses and baby toys I think about her, when I see babies, or hear them cry I think about her, she is forever with me. I do not say much or show much but she touched my heart in away that I could never really explain, and I will never forget her perfect little face until I see her again in Eternity.

Grand Weekend!

After the rocky start of Friday with the crazy patient the rest of my weekend went smashing! I got to sleep late on Saturday, then I hung out with my hubby for a little bit, and then I got to go shop for sweet baby Johanna. Jesse and I then went to dinner and to the movies which we love. The movie was awesome.

On Sunday we had a great day at Church, the message was wonderful of course and made me think about my prayer life and how much it is lacking. Then the church had a Pastor appreciation dinner for Jesse and we had a great time. I would just like to take the time to say that I appreciate my Pastor, I know everyone thinks that it is cheating because he is my husband, but it is not because the time that he stands in the Pulpit challenges my heart just like anyone else and I take him seriously when he stands and preaches. He is always my husband and I always love as such but during those times he is my Pastor and I appreciate that. (I love you Preacher Jesse.)

After church it was down for a nap because that is just what I do, then we went to Calvary and shared Pastor appreciation with the rest of the family. It is always fun to get to go back to Calvary and visit with those special people. Now as the week begins I start to anxiously await the arrival of baby Johanna. I am so excited I cannot wait to kiss those sweet chubby cheeks and see if God has seen fit to give her red hair like Clayton. I am also anxious to see what God has planned for her little life and to enjoy the sweet precious moments we are given with her.

Rant!

Ok so this is a short, sweet, and to the point post. All my peeps that work in the doctors office will understand though. So why does it seem to anyone a good idea to come into a doctors office and demand the records from a test that you had 10 years ago, when you were not under this doctors care. I mean really can I just produce them. Well, me being me and not very assertive I tried. I called medical records, the department that the test were done in, the supervisor of said department, I called the doctors office that he was with at the time, and then I called medical records again because he was still not happy. Well come to find out he has tried this before and to no avail because not everyone is a sucker like me. It makes me kinda angry that I bent over backward to make this super awesome patient happy and he still left angry. Of course he said not with me just the situation, and then he proceeded to complain about driving all the way from Charlotte up here and that he guessed he would just go on to Boone to stay in his mountain home. (Note to complaining patients do not complain about how far you have to drive, one if you do not need to work because you are independently wealthy for some reason, two if you have two homes to go sulk in. Think of the peeps who cannot afford to come to the doctor at all.) Thank you so much for listening.

Being Aunt Amy

I was just thinking today, one that I need to do better about blogging and two that it is awesome being Aunt Amy. I can think of a million reason why it is great being Aunt Amy but I thought that might take a while so I would shorten the list to about 10 or 15.

1. It is awesome being Aunt Amy because of whose Aunt that I am. I mean really how amazing are these kids (in birth order of course not to show favies) Alana, Wesley, Krista, Lindsey, Clayton, Natalie, Baby Jo and Baby Lacombe (aka Sparkles).

2. The Blessing that these children are to me is so hard to describe. I get so excited when I know that I am going to get to see any of them.

3. They think that I am cool, even though I may not be cool all the time. Even Alana and she is 13 so I must be doing something right.

4. They say the best things. Like Duck, duck, doose. Super long Bible Verses. New cool kid words that I do not know what they mean (Alana), and the best one is I love you and missed you.

5. They give awesome hugs and love.

6. They are so funny! Clayton loves to clap and shout to bluegrass and Lindsey and Natalie play fight, Krista has an attitude, and Wesley picks on her about it. Alana is sarcastic if no one noticed.

7. They learn something new all the time and it amazes me at how smart they are.

8. I love getting to be on their level.

9. I love to see how happy they make Jesse and to see him play with them.

10. Getting to send them home when they are no longer happy being with me. (hahaha that was a joke you know I love them even when they are not happy.)

11. Getting to hold them and kiss ouchies.

12. Hearing all the dramatic details of all they have done since the last time I saw them and talking about nothing.

13. Getting to play make believe.

14. Never knowing what they will come up with next.

15. This one is bitter sweet but amazing, being a part of a special journey of a little girl who has changed my life forever, and has helped me to see just how important each life is no matter whether you know the person yet or not. I do not talk about Jo much just because it is so hard and because I feel like it is not my story to tell, and I will never know an ounce of what Nikki is feeling but I know that I have grown from Jo's life, no matter how long I know her here she has made a lasting impression on me. God has worked in me through her in an amazing way. I know that her time may be short here but I will see her again in Heaven and I will always be her Aunt Amy.

The list could go on for days and I could list a million wonderful things about each one of these special children. Why should I if you know them yourself you already know how awesome they are!

Award for me!

So Nikki bestowed upon this awesome award and so therefore I will complete it, and because I love the question answer thing too. (Oh and the computer at work is stinky so therefore I could not copy the picture.)


This award does come with a few rules;

1. Answer the survey below...you can only use one word answers!

2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers!

3. Alert them that you have given them this award!

4. Have Fun!OK now Let the FUN begin

1. Where is your cell phone? Desk
2. Your hair? in place today
3. Your mother? Valdese
4. Your father? Valdese
5. Your favorite food? Pumpkin
6. Your dream last night? Dunno
7. Your favorite drink? Coke from a can
8. Your dream/goal? Trauma Nurse
9. What room are you in? Office
10. Your hobby? Reading
11. Your Fear? anything creepy crawly
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? In God's Will
13. Where were you last night? Mom and Daddy's
14. Something that you aren’t? Loud
15. Muffins? Blueberry
16. Wish list item? A new Coach
17. Where did you grow up? North Carolina
18. Last thing you did? Checked in patient
19. What are you wearing? Black skirt and sweater
20. Your TV? Uh, just a TV
21. Your pets? Fudge and Harper
22. Friends? Wonderful in everyway
23. Your life? Busy but fun
24. Your mood? Anxious
25. Missing someone? Always
26. Vehicle? Mazda 3
27. Something you’re not wearing? Socks
28. Your favorite store? at the moment I am loving Old Navy
29. Your favorite color? Green
30. When was the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? Today
32. Your best friend? Jesus
33. One place that I go to over and over? Restroom
34. One person who emails me regularly? Joan
35. Favorite place to eat? Olive Garden (for the moment)

Thank you Nikki for the chance to do this test.